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06/15/25 -- so i'm finally launching my own website, though it just feels like i'm patchworking templates right now; can't code for shit. it's 4 am.

it goes without saying that however edgy or uncomfy it becomes, this is my safe place. i promise i won't vent that much, i'm actually excited to share my favourites!! by the way, header is a monet. love that.

uh... stick around? i'd love for you to get something out of my blog!

meanwhile i should really get some sleep.

06/16/25 -- added buttons at the footer to credit template and shrine. going to sleep too except now it's 7 am and i can hear the birds, yipee!! they're soozing.
fundamentals
I. we're each of us alone, to be sure. what can you do but hold your hand out in the dark?

II. for everything that lives is holy, life delights in life

III. the moment one gives close atten-tion to anything, even a blade of grass, it becomes a mysterious, awe-some, indescrib-ably magnificent world in itself

IV. in the beginning there was nothing, which exploded

V. there is nothing new under the sun, but there are new suns

VI. a house divided against itself can-not stand

VII. divide each difficulty into as many parts as is feasible and ne-cessary to re-solve it

VIII. action may not always bring happiness; but there is no happi-ness without action

IX. war is what happens when language fails

X. a good decision is based on know-ledge and not on numbers

XI. sometimes, when i have to do something i don't want to do, i pre-tend i'm a char-acter from a book. it's easier to know what they would do

XII. most people are about as hap-py as they make up their minds to be

XIII. time is a drug. too much of it kills you

XIV. everything in the universe goes by indirection. there are no strai-ght lines

XV. to dare is to lose one's footing momentarily. to not dare is to lose oneself

XVI. when i had nothing to lose, i had everything. when i stopped be-ing who i am, i found myself

XVII. the truth will set you free. but not until it is fin-ished with you

XVIII. don't believe what your eyes are telling you. all they show is limit-ation

XIX. friends are those rare people who ask how we are and then wait to hear the answer

XX. you will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. you will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life

XXI. sometimes you make choices in life and some-times choices make you

XXII. watch the lit-tle things; a small leak will sink a great ship

XXIII. what do you despise? by this are you truly known

XXIV. a hero is no braver than an or-dinary man, but he is braver five min-utes longer

XXV. if you don't stand for some-thing you will fall for anything

XXVI. people aren't wicked or noble. they're like chef's salads, with good things and bad things mixed together in a vin-aigrette of con-fusion and conflict

XXVII. everything that irritates us a-bout others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves

these life tips are ranked on what i think is most cru-cial, relatable to me or simply ef-ficient in their wording. i will like-ly change their position later, based on where my life leads me.

-- 06/15/25
bibi
did you stand there all alone?
oh i cannot explain what's going down
i can see you standing next to me
in and out some-where else right now
you sigh, look away
i can see it clear as day
close your eyes, so afraid
hide behind that baby face

you can drive all night
looking for the an-swers in the pour-ing rain
you wanna find peace of mind
looking for the an-swer

funny how it seems like yesterday
as i recall, you were looking out of place
gathered up your things and slipped away
no time at all, i followed you into the hall

cigarette day-dream
you were only seventeen
soft speak with a mean streak
nearly brought me to my knees

you can drive all night
looking for the an-swers in the pour-ing rain
you wanna find peace of mind
looking for the an-swer
if we can find a reason, a reason to change
looking for the an-swers
if you can find a reason, a reason to stay
standing in the pouring rain
reverence
instructions for building your first time machine, by t. s. leonard

don't. the past is overcrowded with the future closer than you think. you blink, that's one eon; a yawn, two. take a few photo-graphs—

one of your moth-er, some of your childhood,

one of the most embarrassing fashion mistakes you made in your twenties—stack them up,

shuffle, deal. fix-ate on some thoughtless crack you made at that party, years ago. you will live

to make another. you will live again. try reflecting

a mirror to an-other mirror—watch yourself

replicate endlessly. try breaking. paste those shards onto a globe; now you've made a dis-co ball—change! step one: forget everything;

step two: forget step one. step one-two-three:

if you're just danc-ing here that's good enough;

when the music stops, stay where you are—

you're older now than you ever im-agined;

you remember wanting to forget. you didn't.

keep walking away from the wreck-age.

-- added 06/15/ 25
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little shrine
breaking news
does not seeing your wife also makes you feel mi-serable? you're not a-lone!! or maybe you are then! does your wife also miss you as much? studies say something about it! not quite sure what but something! anything! does your stomach knot every time you have to tell her you're missing the softer times where you didn't make her mad because you fear? what do you fear? think about it until next scoop! -- 06/15/25
introduction
06/15/25 -- for the sake of confidentiality this website will stay anonym-ous so i will in fact not introduce. HOWEVER!!! i can tell you how unmotiv-ated i am to make it grow you know. or list a top 10 books. or share my cookie reciNO I WILL NEVER SHARE MY COOKIE RE-CIPE GET OUT.

I. the gray house
II. forest of anger
III. handmaid's tale
IV. goodnight punpun
V. cocoon machiko kyo
VI. the stranger
VII. crime and punishment
VIII. steppenwolf
IX. animal farm
X. red white and royal blue
thesis
06/16/25 -- so it is 4 am again, right, but twenty-four hours later and i'm on the last minutes of an also four hours long role-play with my wife. lots of numbers but more import-antly jesus why is my in-dex filled with her? that is not literal i am not asking you jesus. please spare me from another divine suf-fering. but i really love my wife
antithesis
06/16/25 -- this was a bit i will not make an anti-thesis on my wife grrr-aa!!!!! however. i can make an antithesis on the roleplay. i can get rid of all its dirty sins. but do i really want to? i guess i'd score an f on my dissert-ation but i love my wife more than academics.
synthesis
06/16/25 -- today again i have put the minimal am-ount of food in my body though this time in order to spend 10 hours on cod-ing this ass index without the bad but also with the bad because it is looking bad right now. whatever. i like it! it's a start, and my stomach screaming in a-gony won't alter my won-derful mood.